Don't forget.

rawr. i dont like how this is right now. why is everyone so blahh? its like theres this bug going around making everyone all sad =/ seriously. EVERYONE. its not just me. i KNEW this week was going to be bad >.< must have been in denial yesterday. so ive been talking to elfy a lot lately. weird. i feel like ive known him for a while. i can openly talk to him about stuff and i think its cool that he can talk to me too. him and his noona problems and me and my idk... stupidity? we're all in the same boat... that is sooo sad :P you know what? going to the beach sounds nice. maybe ill get wise one to take me one day. in the morning. ill bet he'll love to swim when no ones there. but idk maybe the waves will be too calm for him? not enough of a challenge? :P whatevers. im suppose to do history right now. i already gave up on chem *sigh* im gonna do my best to fix this. i keep remembering how happy i was near the end of last week. i think id do anything to just replay it again. no matter how ridiculous mindy gets with her demands. and thats saying something cause theyre pretty ridiculous already -__-" but no one knows but me and her cause its hella embarrassing on my part -__-" this is my pride im talking about! >:O anyways im getting tired. hopefully i dont do anything stupid and tomorrows a better day. *fingers crossed* i have no idea what came over me today or last night >.< im just sick of beef right now. which reminds me, its funny how many ppl aimed me up asking me why beef wasnt good for them xD oh and im sick rawr. how? i thought it was allergies. =/ i was wrong. cause i was sneezing way too much and i was getting chills but i thought that was cause my apartment was cold which it is, and now my throat hurts. boohoo. right before comfirmation too D:

Lolli lolli lollipop oh youre my lollipop.

i think mindys napping so ill sneak on for a a bit xD today was kinda ehh. but whatevers. went straight home today so i had to miss the tennis game. i couldnt go support my boys :'[ sorrysorry. *fingers crossed* i hope jeffy and david, and ken and vinh SWEEP ;D dammit i just realized today's game was against BOLSA TT________TT we've been waiting for this. i dont pay attention well... even mindy knew?! wtf. i fail TT____TT i wouldnt have been able to handle it anyways. my allergies are all out of whack >.< it suckssss. stupid springtime RAWR. and heart "disease" is bugging me again. -____-" been hurting and all since this weekend. tears. what if i DIE?! justkeeding. overreacting. lol i blame it on my out of whack flow.

p.s. im usually a vegetarian but i guess im beefing.

Say it again for me.

last night i went to bed all bummed. i was like darn it! its gonna be a bad week i can feel it >.< but i woke up this morning and was like its a new day. :] so i got to see everyone and that was good. i missed everyone<3 and jeff was all i missed you too and i was like but you missed me the most and he was like yeaa. and then maria got jealous. LOL and he was like gosh kelly stop taking all the miss xD hes such a CUTIEEEE! xD so today was a pretty chill day i think. except my flow was all messed up and it was bugging me. only maria and jeff know what that means (i think) xD poor jeff LOLOLOL then afterschool, i gave danny his surprise but apparently it wasnt good enough so ill surprise him again tomorrow... maybe :P and doreena took me and mindy to buy the potluck food. got some pastries... not bad haha and then stopped by for frozen yogurt. we talked about stuff like how she finally got to see danny. now shes gonna interrogate mart LOL. good luck with that :P and then i found out my grandma came home from the hospital ^_____^ my mom was overreacting about the alzheimer i think. hopefully >.< but shes back. so thats good. so me maria and jessica had an intense conversation about serious stuff and stuff like universal cuteness. LOL that was fun xD then i got my dress approved. PHEW. no more worries ;D but amelia might still yell at me o.o fudgers ill get maria and jessica to back me up xD ill just hide behind them while she yells... >.< but its all good in the neighborhood ;D

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woke up. went to church. then barbecue with the family. fuuun. haha ate a lot... like a MONSTER :P then helped phillip with his physics project. shame shame. make a bridge in one day? really? he had one week. smart one. -_____-" still havent visited my grandma =/ everyones taking turns to watch her at the hospital. i think its arousing drama within the family? rawr. just when everyone is suppose to get together for mine and mart's confirmation *sighsighsigh*

Its ok.

so grandma had a minor stroke... =/ we were planning to visit her but my parents were late for work and they left us behind and went to visit her alone. i got up early and everything. me and mindy were ready. its not our fault we didnt get to go. its not like we dont care. its hard for me to realize how weak she is now and that shes not always going to be here and that we take her for granted too much. shes taken care of all of us ever since we were little. you think i dont care? thats not fair.

Its just emotions taking me over.

i just dont get it. first im being ignored and then that ends for a short time. and now its happening again?

junior. im just a little disapointed =/ please dont make these mistakes >.< ahh he just needs think about it. despite his past- his present and future are what matter. please dont let him mess this up. theres restraint and willpower. hes strong. i know it.

I'd be lying if i told you losing you was something i could handle.

"when you assume you make and ASS out of U and ME" well guess what? hee. honk. i think... ive been selfish >.< i suppose i did blow things out of proportion. but thats just how it is for me. i have to be pessimistic. optimism is soo overrated. who wants to get their hopes up just to get it shot down? aim low and avoid disappointment right? but for some reason it hasnt been working too well. so what is that suppose to mean?