Im steady steady steady pacing back and forth.

So today my plans were ruined =/ and I was all ready for it too and just as I was waiting my cousins called us to go to the beach. It was fun though. I got a little darker :P and me and vivian were boogey boarding haha funnnn. Then when we got tired and we walked all the way to the watering hole. Vivian carried the four boards and I carried a bag of bottled water -__- why did we even bring that with us?! It was sooo heavy D: and Tracy could have taken it to her car. I was having enough trouble walking through the sand -_- I almost fell over like a drunk person sooo many times xD it was embarrassing and I evn tripped on a rock I think O.o that was embarrassing too :P cause there were people around and then we walked all the way to the car and on the way there I was attracting a bee and everytime it came near us me and vivian would freak out and run away screaming... Yea lots of cars were passing by too /)_< when we finally got to tracys she made me noodles the right way xD yum. Then we messed around some more and went home. I'm catching up in the secret life if the American teenager ;D oh yea and the night before I stayed up til four watching baby and me. Omgoodness it was soooo cute xD yeaaa hmmm now I'm just counting down the hours...

Nothing but me and the sun heading down this way.

So today was a good day. Except I got caught not doing chores /)_< LOL oh well. We got kathy a birthday cake and surprised her at her house. The cake was yummy :] and omgoodness I can't believe she's 17 >.< she doesn't look her age. A senior?! D: we're all growing up so fast :'[ time goes by way too fast. Ahh nostalgia >.< anyways after we surprised her we went to Scott and Phillips house for the fathers day thing. Mmmmm good food xD and we played with the itouches and messed around and watched UP omgoodness it. Was. Too. CUTEEE! xD like oh my snaps it was really good :] lalalaloved lol. Then we played spoons. Rawr it's hard to pick up cards on slippery table and mart and phillip totally cheated -_- jerksss. Double teaming on me... Stupid CHEATERS :P then the older cousins got us late night starbucks but mart spilled mine in Phillips room -__- what an idiot. And me and vivian were lipsync battling xD it was hella lame and embarrassing but fun LOL like wooooow super embarrassing and then we both ended up singing out loud and in each others faces xD but before that all the cousins surrounded doreenas mom while she was sleeping and we were about to start screaming happy birthday to freak her out but someone couldn't contain their giggles and she woke up and we were like uhhhh... *everyone screams random stuff* xD super ghetto LOL then when I finally got home and showered and stuff everyone was like asleep... So I finished watching a millionaires first love... I teared up a bit. It was very cute. But OMG especially the birthday present. Dam these Koreans. They always think of the cutest things >.< *sigh*

Your love has got me addicted.

So Thursday was our three month. THREE not FOUR. Wtfruit I can't believe I said four /)_< how embarrassing... So yea a super cute fat panda :] surprise? Yup. Super suprised? Hell to the yea. Still hard to believe. And I still can't believe I said four DAMMIT >:O rawr.

So our satellite doesn't work anymore D: and I really wanted to watch gran torino and the curious case of Benjamin button :'[ but on the bright side we got the box thing for regular tv so I have the Korean channel xD but I can't understand a word -__- then again who needs to understand big bang?? :P I guess I'll finish watching a millionaire's first love now. I already know the girl is sick and it's gonna end all sadlike and whatnot. And the guy is UGLY but I guess he's growing on me :P it's starting to get cute and I'm starting to get sleepy >.< but I want to finish this movie so yeaaa :]

Family thing tomorrow. Should be fun. But... Always bittersweet =/

Talk, Play, Love.

so last week was a bust -_- the day i got my bottom retainer, i lost both by throwing them away at lunch. realized it too late at 7ish and begged scott to take me to school to look for it. then i asked the custodian guys if they could take down the trash at the top and they ended up taking a shovel and stick to help me look for it. i could barely see over the dumpster thing. mother eff. gave up at 8? and went home crying. my parents were pretty pissed /)_(\ then i had to do my essay and had like no sleep this week and i just want to crash but i have my history ppt and annotations to do. and then i have to study for my finals D: my grades are so bad this year >.<

so this morning peter took me and mindy out to eat dim sum across the street. it wasn't that good LOL. oh well. peter was being retarded as usual. food coma!! then after we stopped by my grandmas and played with vinh. that cutieeeeee. he called mart a dog xD and then peter called vinh a pig and he was like no im a DOOOOOOOG. cute xD and he was riding his little tricycle around in circles. im surprised he didnt run into anything. he was riding with one hand and he wasnt looking where he was going... more coordinated than me and hes only 3 TT__TT but he has the cutest smile xD lol

so today was suppose to be hw and study all day.. i was about to start until peter took us out -_- now im too lazy to do anything. i was gonna do some last night but i was feeling all whatevers and stuff so i went to sleep. im still tired... i really want to take a nap but i know i wont wake up. rawr. only 3 more days left. i just need to hang in there >.< stupid excuses -_-

When I hear your voice nothing matters at all.

rawr.. bad day >.< woke up and realized i didnt finish annotating. then i had to print out kathys stuff for her (which turns out she didnt need cause she didnt even present today -_-) then my dad was like lecturing me in the car for being late to school like everyday... sometimes its not even my fault D: during the history benchmark, crosby checked a few peoples' answers but not everyone's how unfair is that?! then in badminton billy friggin hit me in the eye with a birdie and my eye got all red and a little swollen /)_< embarrassing. found out i did not so good on my math test D: and i was trying to annotate all day and that didnt work out too well at all. kikawa was just getting on my nerves. he keeps marking me down >:O i dont even do anything wrong wtf -_- its all long and andrewvu D: david nguyen is getting on my last nerves too. being a jerk doesnt make people like you.. smart one -_- i really wanted to smack richard at lunch >:O RAWR. and i was just falling asleep in chem and english. lots of hw today... bummer.

but the little amount of time after school made me forget. barely 3 minutes with him and it all disappeared. i dont even know how but danny worked his magic on me xD

Im the one :]

Danny Carroll <3 *big heart*

I'll remember you.

i was soo tired today >.< but at the assembly i wasnt LOL me and jessica were just commenting on every little thing so it was fun haha. and maria and kathy did good :DDDDD omg only 2 years left. we only put 2 fingers up during the alma mater TT_______TT *sniffles* jessica started crying lol imma miss all those seniors :'[ especially viet and david/vincentSPACEvu and wise one(well imma miss seeing him at school lol). we were feeling so nostalgic haha but then when i went to 3rd i got sleepy again and then i got a detention for my "truancy" on thursday -_- i gotta go fix that >:O and kikawa kept picking on me cause he knew i was tired. i was like seriously just leave me alone >:O its not like i wasnt paying attention when we were in our groups. its not like i was sleeping... but i did fall asleep in chem >.< and when i woke up i could feel cox staring at me D: its not like he cares but hes probably thinking that thats why i have a B in his class :'[ lunch and english was whatevers and then we hung out in the fields during the baseball game. it was fun and oh so relaxing xD it was a really nice day. maria took a nap. i was gonna but ... nah lol jeffrey was going all model status on us. haha i took some pro pictures. then me and jessica and kathy took pictures with my phone. xD haha neil popped in a couple of them too. but i ended up only getting a couple pictures cause i ran out of memory xD thennn afterschool i kinda gave danny a hug even though he was all sweaty :P and i DONT regret it :] and then me and mindy and kathy squeezed into her dads truck to go home xD i feel so bad >.< when i got home i played with the itouch and fell asleep. oops haha. now my mom is making me put her songs on my ipod. i guess the itouch is mine now >:] mwhahah.

All i ever wanted was to see you smiling.

so i promised myself i wouldnt go on aim today. i cant handle anymore distractions. tomorrows friday which means i need to handle just one more "sleepless" night before the weekend >.< honestly i shouldnt be blogging but i couldnt resist xD so i got to school so late this morning cause my dad was taking forever and then my mom got all anal and drove us to school.. wtf. she doesnt drive... and she especially cant drive the van o.o i thought we were gonna die. cause she was yelling and driving at the same time and im like pay attention to the road! /)_(\ scary~~ then i watched the boat races thing and i saw phillips. wtf its like a box... and i was suppose to be in that?! pshh. afterschool he told me that after 1.2 seconds it sunk xD poor johnny haha he replaced me.

so today was pretty chill. me likey :] but i was sooo tired i couldnt fully enjoy it D: so danny got saturday school :O oooooh. shame shame. :P how do you get saturday school for no reason? that makes nooo sense. maybe it was a mistake. there are a lot of dannys and a few other carrolls right? :p but of course im a bad influence and thats probably why he got saturday school. yup all those illegal things i did like try to buy cigarettes, and movie hopping, and the payperview. shameful. just SHAMEFUL. pshh whateverr :P so anyway afterschool me and mindy walked home. it was so hot. turns out my mom was home today and when we got home she made us run across the street to my grandmas house to get mindys shoes. so we j-walk over there... DANGEROUS. and then we open the door and vinh is running around halfnaked LOL and then my grandma tells us that my dad already took the shoes home. so we j-walk across bolsa again and go look for the shoes. then we call my dad and he tells us he left them in the van... the one he drove to work... THIRTY MINUTES AWAY IN SANTA FE SPRINGS -_- we're just like what now?! and hes like uh too bad. mindy was just like I NEED SHOES!!!!! and i was just like I COULDA BEEN NAPPING THIS WHOLE TIME x______x so i finally took a nap and set up 2 alarms. when i woke up i went back to sleep. then jennifer called me. THANKGOODNESS. but i was like wtf jennifer has my number? and then i hear a guy's voice and im like OH YEA ITS JEFF! xD my bad. hes all worried that he woke me up but he really SAVED ME xD yay. after i gave him hw i went into my moms room to see mindys hair. it was all curled and she looked so girly xD honestly. she looked very pretty :'] and she wore my mom's shoes which i didnt think were too bad but she was freaking out cause she was too tall -_- seriously?! id kill to be taller... i bet shes worried about her DATE and that he'll be too short for her LMAO justkeeding. but really theyre only in middle school and most of them probably havent hit puberty yet LOLOL then i took pictures for her and walked her outside so peter could take her to school. when i came back my mom was all excited and she wanted to see the pictures. then like 15 minutes later she asks me what time it is.
me: 6:12?
my mom: THATS IT?!!
*3 minutes later*
me: now its 6:15...
my mom: o.o THAT WAS THE LONGEST THREE MINUTES OF MY LIFE.
me: O__o wow mom you missing mindy?
my mom: *bigsmile* uhh... no i just want her to get back so she can tell me all about it
LOLOLL of course.. and shes doing something with her eye and her nose was getting red. aww her littlest baby is growing up :'] i have this urge to dress up and sneak in just to keep and eye on her. my mom even asked me if parents were allowed to be there LOL not because she didnt trust mindy but i think its more cuase its mindys first dance lol ok so mindy went to the dance but ive never been to one... and peters all being mean to me about it cause i dont know how to freak and im like I DONT WANT TO.. and OMG MINDY KNOWS HOW TO GRIND o.o but she says shes never done it. but she could if she tried? o.o im not even really sure how that works... how does she?!

so anyway. tennis banquet today. i coulda gone OMG I COULDA GONE. yesterday i told my mom about how tuan's sister asked me to go with him but i told her i couldnt go and my mom was just like why cant you? and im like o.o cause you said so? and shes like.... you should go. and im like huh?! so mindy called My and she told tuan but it was too late. oh wells :P i have to do history anyway... which im working on now... yeaa. but omg i coulda gone. but its probably a good idea that i didnt. and then oh yea my mom found out about youtube on the itouch and she liked it so she freaking took it back for herself >:O but i still use it cause it charges in my room mwahhaa xD ok enough procrastinating /)_<

If at first you dont succeed.

so tired. itouch is cool xD but its just one more thing thats distracting me =/ only 2 more weeks... almost there >.< so i skipped first period today to go to the ortho and get the bottom mold done. yuck. then i went home cause i didnt wnat to go to school yet. instead of napping for like 30 minutes i played with the itouch xD i shoulda studied some more but my math book was in the car. then when i got to school i failed my math test D: yay... and in chem i had a sneezing fit and cox looked over at me and gave me a WHATS GOING ON OVER THERE kind of look and i just looked up and was like o.o i was sneezing? and then he started laughing and was like is THAT what that was?! and everyone looked over and laughed and someone went WTF?! THAT WAS A SNEEZE?! -_- how embarassing... then i got a 3+/4- on my research essay xD HELLS TO THE YEAAAAAA ;D i was sooo surprised. yay xD

so afterschool i went to cherry's house to hang out while mindy, my, and christina worked on their project. their little sister is soo cute but just a little bit annoying. still cute though haha. its only expected. i mean shes got no one else to play with. so mindys friends are cool haha. and my was really nice. haha tuan's sister. she was trying to get me to go to banquet with him. i felt really bad >.< she was really trying and she really cares about her brother. i was like awwww. i would go if i could :'[ then after that me and cherry left the girls to update each other on everything. it was like whoa. fun. but then we had to go home cause it was getting late and i still had a shizload of hw to do >.< but omgoodness we should do that again xD

so im trying soo hard. but its seems like all the effort has gone in vain. im not gonna stop trying though. cause when it comes to something like this, i dont give up quite so easily.

You can cut ties with all the lies that youve been living in.

mother eff. i woke up 3 hours passed my nap >:O didnt do any homework or research history. and i found out i broke my bottom retainer and i probably wont get a new one until wednesday or thursday cause they dont friggin open on tuesdays. rawr!! thats $250 right there :'[ so my itouch dream just disappeared -_- and now im gradually losing my voice cause im sick and i keep practicing my lines :'[ and mindys trying to hatch her stupid egg at my desk so i have like no room. why is she doing this anyway?! and mine and kathys flow are synchronizing which means i get my lovely gift a bit early this month >:O rawr rawr rawr.

If the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more.

i was freaking out all day over my lines and i ended up chickening out >.< but i think ill be fine tomorrow if kathys my brutus >.< hopefully it works out. ive been practicing and stuff and i guess im ok? but still kinda nervous. its one thing to do it in the mirror but another to do it on the senior stage /)_(\ ahh i should have gone today D:

imma try my bestttt not to procrastinate tonight. im sooo over waking up late and rushing to school D: and i have a shizload to do. only 2 weeks left and i cant get lazy yet. but i think its too late >.<

some things are better left unsaid. perhaps i said too much so now idk whats real. it all seems too good to be true. so im keeping my guard up just in case. i see it and its JUMPING out at me like a fish out of water and i dont want it to slap me in the face.