im back ;D

so i just haven't had time to blog. but its the end of the semester and the beginning of a new (chinese/vietnamese) year so i guess ill start over again. a lot has happened since the last time i blogged. i guess i was avoiding this because i was so embarrassed that carebear read my blog and figured out he was carebear >.< *blushes* but i suppose its not that bad lol. ooh and he sang to me like thursday night. he sang im yours by jason mraz. it was really cute cause he was so nervous and hes not scared of ANYTHING apparently lol. to think hes afraid of singing is just too adorable cause his voice was so shaky lol. i liked it though. i was smiling the whole time. made my cheeks hurt xD. i really like what we have right now. i hope it lasts. but im still scared. i should just risk it right? but thats hard since this is my heart we're dealing with and i only have one of those. :/ i just want to take this one step at a time. i hope he can wait for me >.<

so anyways i went to the tet festival and i didnt get to talk to him all day. but i did get to hang out with tay and jeff for most of the time and kevin and his sister a little. me, mindy, and my cousin kathy each bought an allday pass for $25 then sold them for $10 each before we left xD. i didnt intend to be a hustler but now i feel really bad. >.< i thought i was killing two birds with one stone by saving money and like being a good samaritan (<< however you spell that) *sigh*

oh and im very excited about the subject of einstein. but i dont want to influence any thoughts about something that isnt there >.<

the end.

so so FUZZY...

ahh. so i completely forgot about blogging. its been what almost a week? guess i've just been busy... distracted... you know... FUZZY. >.< so as of the last time i blogged, im completely over metro/kardashian/karkrash. lets just say that that crush WAS a car crash. putting me in such am emotional wreck. but im good now. because there was someone who picked up the pieces and put a smile on my face. and that smile seems almost permanent now. xD CAREBEAR <3. i never noticed him before until just recently. it surprised me how cute he was personality wise and i guess looks too. LOL. but our conversations went from just messing around to full on, hardcore flirting.. for me anyways LOL. idk. maybe he's dropping hints? or maybe im just getting my hopes up and setting myself up for complete disappointment. D: ive told majk and they seem to be really happy for me. but we've rotated again. basically me and jessica switched spots. i feel bad though cause she was soo happy and now she seems on the brink of giving up. :| if i can get over that situation with metro/kardashian/karkrash, then she can too. i dont wnat her to give up even though dynamite is being a total jerk. i know she can bring him back into the light. and if not, i guess we'll just have to meet a few people behind the apartments afterschool xD haha yeaa but its just hard to give jessica my full support when im so fuzzy xD i think im really in like. i just realized that i have butterflies in my stomach i thought it was just cause i was maybe a little sick. idk about him but hes definitely stolen my heart. ill officially give it to him next week. he just wont know what it will symbolize.

Curiousity killed the cat... I WISH

i hate cats. i really do. and im scared of all animals. i really am. ask anyone. but omg. today i was tortured at tiffany's house. we were suppose to do our project. yea playing with the cat AND kelly is not doing our project. NO WONDER I AM UP SO LATE. yeesh. the cat is like friggin scary and ugly. but even if like it looks like its doing nothing on the inside, i can tell, its scheming in that little head of hers. COCOA. thats her name. she has blue eyes. i would have said she was pretty if they hadnt shoved her in my face. D: yeesh. therapy?! i think NOT. danny says they were trying to "help" me get over my fears. yea laughing doesnt help. and cornering me doesnt help either. seriously it was danny on my left, table on my right, and sheila and tiffany with THE CAT right in front of me. i was screaming. NOT FUN. i screamed/cried so loudly that i scared the cat LOL my bad ... NOT. at least it got away from me. then we got back to work. lets pray for an A shall we?

okays im tired i just HAD to blog about the cat cause she made me cry. D:

btw: kelly 3 ; Danny 1 ... SUCKAHHHH im a better superhero than him. plus, hes a villain. and an accomplice to the evils of the cat. she totally manipulated the circumstances so that it looked like she was innoncent. but the CAT was sooo the mastermind behind the torture i faced today. dumb cat. *yawns*

Another day, another FIFTEEN CENTS

so the saying goes: "another day, another dollar". well today, i spent 15 cents a page to print out stuff for my project. :O crazy i know. and like we didnt get much done. sad, really. cause i really wanted to finish our project today. but tomorrow for sure! but today was kind of fun cause my group and i were at garden grove library across from garden grove high school. and there was this group from gghs who were talking about BMU and me and linda were telling danny to ask them if they read JLC so we could help each other. we got into a half our argument about danny and his lack of manliness vs trying to avoid any "confrontation". and we kept making fun of them and there was this guy in green who had a mustache and danny kept pointing at him and talking about him. so obvious. i was embarrassed for us. and then all of a sudden virginia stands up and says ill go if someone goes with me. then she walks over there and says hi to a girl that me and linda said seemed "intimidating", "unapproachable", and just plain "mean". turns out she was pretty nice. LOL my bad :P and they didnt read jlc yet HAHA they are behind us ... lucky -_- then there was this guy behind us wearing giant earphones BUT we heard music coming from his laptop. and we were like wtf? maybe he doesnt know his earphones arent plugged in??? turns out he was making music. O.O interesting eh?. and then adn then adn then there was this creepy old guy (50ish) in a red jacket just sitting there staring. and linda goes THE GUY IN THE RED?! WHERE??! and we bustout laughing cause she was soo loud and the grove ppl kept staring at us. LOL and later we were trying to get stuff done and sheila and tiffany got off topic and i went QUIET! and the grove ppl stared again LOL. we wasted a lot of time. xD

then majkk had a meeting but kathy didnt talk much and maria and andrew were chatroom flirting LOL is it still called flirting when youre together?? idk. cute but kind of gag worthy. LOL then jessica made it official, dynamite makes her heart go boom LOL cute. i still approve. but i need a chance to get to know him. and im not just gonna say hey there :D kinda creepy eh? lol ill find a way heheh. and fianlly jessica knows about ben and kathy. its good she knows. now we have no secrets. right? RIGHT hells yeaaaaa. but then i remember karkrash (i guess so? whatevers). gets me all sad again. which reminds me that i still need to tell vivian. she aimed me up while i was at the library. all caps. WHO IS YOUR EYE CANDY?!?! soo embarrassing since linda was behind me. LOL but i closed the box and signed off real quick haha oops. ill tell her later. she already knows who he is anyways.

i talked to kevin with the eye today. very interesting convo. he said some more very gay stuff. LOL (see buddy info) which then led to a talk about our exes. its uncanny how alike we are LOL. good talk. i needed that to remind me that i dont want to be in a relationship so forget karkrash (for a little bit). then afterwards i went to church. i was soo hoping for eyecandybut i jsut saw liam. LOLOLOL just keedding haha.(shame on me i know, but i cant help it D: if we had gone to st.barbara i wouldnt even have tried. but we went to holy spirit and i havent been there in a while so i couldnt remember if there were eyecandies there. obviously not) but i did see this family. there was this chubby little boy who had a.d.d or something. he jsut wouldnt sit still. and he was playing with his mom saying "kiss me mommy!" and she would kiss him on the cheek and he would wipe of this kiss and say it again. this went on for a while and i could tell my mom was annoyed cause they were sooo loud. LOL but he was sooo adorable. and he had a little cousin. and she had the cutest laugh. >.< i was like awwwwww. friggin adorable!!!! but big disappointment cuase i sooo did not see any eycandy. havent seen any for a while now. rawr. time to work on jlc. sleep. the whole nine yards. yup yup yay....

There's A First Time for Everything...

Okays, so I never thought I would be blogging, but here I am. I guess there's a first time for everything. I always thought blogs were stupid. People talk about their life, and frankly, its just not as interesting as they think it is. But let's make one thing clear, I'm only doing this, not because I want to be heard, but because I want to be able to look back and remember the good old times and learn from the bad ones (AND i felt left out since I was the only one in M[A]JKK who didn't have a blog xD). See how boring this is already? Okays, I'll cut the formality shizzle and let the drama that is the lunch table unfold...

today was actually not that bad if i only think about the good stuff. there were the good things like getting an A on a quiz that studied for at 2 in the morning the ngiht before, and then finding out i also got an A on the quiz before that i totally BSed :P i guess i did learn some stuff from georgia haha. then i got my retainer. fascinating, it really is. but then there were the bad things like the plague. SHE'S EVERYWHERE. seriously wtf. i saw her pass us in the hall and hide. like okay i can't see your purse coming out of the wall. and the she pops out and says that thing she always says -_____- DISGUST. totally ruined the song with her high pitched voice and FACE. i know i sound mean but ughh, i tried to be nice. seriously. while kathy and jessica bagged on her nonstop, i stood there and nodded thinking, i dont really know her, how cna i judge her so quickly? BUT FORGET THAT. she thinks she can just take our boys? thats right OUR boys not HER boys like she calls them. and whats with her and kardashian/metro/australia (thats right, hes so special he gets THREE nicknames LOL) they are ALWAYS together. DISGUST. what a friggin cougar. is it envy? idk. i dont even know if itseven to the extent of jealousy. im still confused. i thinks its the influence. jessica and mindy put in my head that i liked him and now im really confused if these "feelings" are legit. i jsut know im pretty pissed at IT, THAT THING... THE PLAGUE. and something else that bugs me is that i know he likes someone. but idk who, and i really dont want to know. im really scared of rejection i guess. D: whats worse is that he forgot soemthing at the table and jeffie gave it to me to hold cause hes lazy lol but majkk was all freaking out cuase i had it and saying that when i give it to him hell be so thankful and give me a hug and blah blah blah but i was like whatever. it did get me thinking thouhg. and when we went to the tennis courts and i didnt see him. i was disappointed. rejected. something jsut went crash D: cause i knew exactly where he was. well, not exactly but i knew who he was with. if that makes a difference. hes anywhere the plague is.

so more drama... apparently superman wants to meet me. sorry sir. i used to want to be your lois lane but you missed your chance buddy. LOL i cant believe kevin told his friend. i mean come on. i thoght only us girls and andrew do taht. maybe they really are all gay for each other. just keeding. but i cant believe it. i thoguht it was kind of weird that everytime i see him we have eye contact like he knows or knew. and like i see him everywhere now which is weird cause i never saw him when i did like him. and now he wants to meet me and he thinks my name is cherry LOL but whatevers. but im still baffled. why does it matter to him anyways? hes going to winter formal with someone. im proud to say, i dont care. LOL i used to say that with an unsure feeling, but its official as of 2 or 3 weeks ago? lol idk doesnt matter anyways.

kathy and xman. i dont like it. but if kathys happy, im good. but if he does anything stupid ill kick him to timbucktoo. however you spell that. "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. . .And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love." 1 Corinthians 13:4-13. and you can take that to the bank. :P lets all think of this when we think about love shall we?

maria and andrew. the perfect couple. jealous? hells yea. they seem to be attuned to each others every thgouht (but not in a creepy way). lol wish i had that. "im lucky i'm in love with my best friend"- jason mraz. its their theme song. maria jsut doesnt know it cuase she hasnt listened to it yet, i dont think. shame right? cuase its the cutest song ever ever ever. atm for the win.

jessica and dynamite. omgomgomgomg i totally knew it. forget oliver. that was just a facade, cause hes soooo cute. but hes a thug. shame. LOL but anyways that time when she was talking about the "jessica? you meant he cute one?" and the singing to her or whatever. i knew it! i told her too. maybe i influenced it a little but its cute. waaaaay better than that jerkface korea. NORTH korea that is. stupid communist. RAWR. he doesnt deserve her. but dynamite. i approve. i HIGHLY approve. even thoguh i dont know him that well. cute. "just look at that cool duo" -kathydao

mindy and rickydickywhat???? idk who he is. idk his name. but i know he exists. LOL but kathy wont tell me who he is. its really not fair. mindy gets a front row seat of my life. and im locked out of the theatre with no ticket. MESSED UP. really. i think im being taken for granted.

first time blogging. boring? not to me.