Tonight's the night i let it go.

way to lose it. guess what just went poof? -_-

And you got a smile that could light up this whole town.

hmm. kathy said it was cute. then mindy looked at her and then she was like WAIT NO IT WASNT! >:O haha funny :P afterschool i went home and watched marley and me. its ok...? i guess? kikawa already ruined it for me -_- so i was just waiting for IT to happen. i thought it was going to be tragic or something... turns out i dont really care because i dont really like animals and it doesnt phase me? :P then i took a nap but then wise one callem me to get eggs... i was like heh? he wanted to borrow 2 eggs... only 2. O_o gonna cook something for magie or something? idk thats still a little weird for me o.o he can see whoever he wants but shes my age so thats kinda weird >.< so spanish project was EMBARRASSING. they all laughed when we danced /)_(\ of course... and i didnt get full credit. but whatevers :P
so i went to vivians house for dinner. yum. and we watched taylor swifts new music video for you belong with me... OMG SOOOOO FRIGGIN A CUUUUUUUUUUUTE ^^ and then we kept playing it over and over again haha sooo cute xD and then joycelyn told us to look up "full of expressions starking" omgoodness. the little boy was sooo cute. he was making these faces. like sad face, surprised face, and stuff. but my favorite was his "im in love" face and what i call his "how YOU doing?" *wink* face xD gahh so cuute. then this one guy from 2pm did the same faces. it was cuuute. and then they did my favorites together and damm IT WAS TOO CUTE xD i was like freaking out and me, mindy and viv kept watching it over and over again eeeeeep. haha and then we searched up something else and we got that 2pm guy singing "dont wanna try" OMG JESSICA WAS RIGHT! HIS ENGLISH IS FRIGGIN GOOOOOOOOOOD. if only she had sent me those videos, i could give her the credit for making me a 2pm fan :P but it goes to mindys friend now. lol im probably gonna get hit by a lot of birdies for saying that :P
mindy wants to bake cookies for joycelyn but we dont have the stuff. i was planning to get it for her today when my parents came home but that didnt work out. maybe we'll get the stuff tomorrow.and my mom is making us clean up... im probably not gonna until like.. late. then maybe we'll got to the festival fair thing at blessed sacrament at 630sih with vivian? idk. not sure if my parents will let. so tired. gotta wake up early and do hw D: hmm mindy and mom are watching the spirit. i dont get it at alllllll. its sooo weird. LOL oh and dude i watched the suju video. LOL kibum DOES look like a fag xD and like in the beginning of the video he walks away and i guess hes suppose to be sad but i think i saw him smile?! so i was confused... the song was catchy. i like. :] and theyre kinda growing on me. BUT there are still too many members >.< cuase i still only know some of their names. kangin is a fattieee (: *seductive voice* donghae also looks like a fattieee in his weird suspenders but overall they dont look THAT bad :P except for kibum. ew. LOL. so mindy and my mom are watching the spirit... its sooo weird xD mmm tired. night world.

Its like when it rains.

1.freshman in my first period is in the hospital and it sounds serious... it just makes me sad and it makes me think ok?
2.ppl's little hissy fits and going all drama-queen status on everyone... seriously, man up.
3.the inconsistency... cause i was on the brink today and it FREAKED. ME. OUT.
4.freshman doesnt listen!! omgoodness FAILFAILFAIL. -_- then he goes and makes it worse. and he has a higher grade in math than me?! wtf.

happy now? :P its funny how everyone kept asking me what was wrong today. kinda caught me off guard. is it so wrong to just think? i guess so... well for me it is. i overthink way too much. even neil knew something was wrong... dude i didnt even know O_o that was so weird. so i had a good talk with kevinwiththeeye. what a loser. next time hes soo walking with us >:O even if he is "kind of a boy" haha. yeaa im just kind of out of it. when we were walking home i was soo tired. D: i jsut wanted to sit down in the shade and listen to my ipod. sighsighsigh. now i just want to lay in bed with my music. so i really dont need this friggin spanish powerpoint right now -_- and if we dont get full credit on this, too bad, cause i dont flipping care.

Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe.

im sorry that people cant handle the truth and get all drama queen status on me. but ill still be there for them *cough cough* he knows who he is. ill make that trust reappear. no more poof. everyones being such a drama queen. theyre guys for goodness sake! man up... yeesh -_- justkeeding i know theres hurt but being rational is important. keeping it cool is important. NOT LOSING YOUR TEMPER is important :P forgive me please. ive told him once and ill tell him again "I GOT YOU BUDDY" ;D
im getting kinda ehh with the inconsistency. getting whiplash? yuuup. i asked because i worry. and everyone knows i worry a lot. about whoever and whatever, i dont just think about myself you know. im getting the feeling its like another promise in the dark.

what made my day today? jeffy... aww we had a talk. im glad he cares enough to ask how i felt about it xD <3<3<3 but it really didnt bother me at all LOL its the thought that counts though haha

When i hear, it takes over me.

mall. crawfish. then diggin through the trash <<< NASTY SHIZZLE
i <3333 vivian pham. be owing her big time.

Welcome to my life.

this is what i get for being on cloud nine too long. now i have to try to fix everything and until i do, im giving up aim and my phone for a while.

p.s. i need someone to ask danny not to walk home on monday. this time, im not giving in.

Do you know?

i had a baaaad dream last night >.< i didnt understand what was going on until after i woke up though. i'm guessing it was because before i went to sleep my parents lectured me about school projects outside of school and how im making it harder on everyone else... =/ i think they were the ones who were blowing it out of proportion and making it seem worse than it really is. i was really pissy over that last night but now something is just eating at me. i feel like a horrible sister cause im alwaysalwaysalways dragging mindy around everywhere. during my lecture she was like "what is this?! i feel like unwanted luggage -_-" im a horrible sister :'[ and im soo sorry for that. but she should know that id do whatever for her. she hasnt asked me to do anything big for her yet, just little things, but when it comes down to it. dude ill do it.