Do you ever dream of candy coated raindrops?

break. 9 days. finally. so omgoodness i had the biggest scare today o.o i was with danny and kathy called to tell me mindy was on the phone with my dad. he told her he was at school and he asked where i was. and mindy told him i was in romanos. i was like wtf? hes checking up on me?! *hurt* i cant be trusted? D: ok i know that. i lie to my parents way too much >.< i know its bad. =/ most of the time its for their own good. there are some things they don need to know. like how i get a ride home. yea that worries them -_- they just worry way too much and they dont need the extra stress. but i guess i dont help. rawr. im a bad daughter >.< so i ran as fast as my little legs would go xD but im pretty slow. omgoodness i made a sharp turn an almost fell. LOLOL good thing no one was there to seee xD but wheni got to romano's it was locked iwas like @#!% and then i went to the senior parking lot. and i found mindy and kathy. i was like please let this be a late april fools joke >.< mindy seemed pissed xD lol okokok i promise ill stop. I GUESS she does enough for me. she a real bword about it though. and its not like she does A LOT. she only puts up with my friends and danny but hello????? she loves my friends :P uhhh idk about danny LOL but yea. so turns out it was a false alarm. my parents werent checking up on me. my mom was sick D: and my dad drove her home from work and thought hed pick us up on the way. PHEWWWWWW. i wonder if they passed by the front office though. because. uh oh. >.< omgoodness i hate the mystery. fudgers. i dont think they saw anything? so scary >.< idk ughh. and i totally ditched danny. :O shame on me =/ but my LIFE was on the line. and this is not me being a drama queen either. omgoodness. ive been called a drama queen a lot this week :O i guess that means im a drama queen -__-" oh and apparently im crazy too :P rawr. so kathy. goodness that little cougar LMAO im glad shes happy. like genuinely happy too. it made me wanna cry xD ive never been so happy that i cried. but i came kinda close today. shes been through so much bs from that dumbass. she deserves better. im glad shes finally letting go because he doesnt deserve her time. ok so i took a nap from like 6-10 but im still sleepy duh. i need to catch up on sleep. gonna go dream. night world.

Strong enough to stop this world from spinning.

so last night i pulled an all nighter with kathynguyen. i was sooo tired. and like i finished at 6:30 wtf. but like i bsed most of it. so i have to fix it all. >.< omgoodness. i fell asleep once. but it was a NAP ok? taking a nap and sleeping are sooo different. naps are like short and your about to fall into a deep sleep. sleeping is sleeping long enough for you to have a complete dream, the end. -____-" i cant believe the table agreed with kevin and not me D: but it was funny cause he tapped this random guy and was like "hey are napping and sleeping-" and the guy looked at him like he was crazy and walked away xD LOL and they say IM embarrassing?? pshh. ok i admit it. i am. but at least when i ask random people questions they dont look at me like im crazy. not to my face anyway :P and i took a nap in spanish. :O it was kinda by accident. after the benchmark i looked at the clock. it was like 12:00. i put my head on my desk and closed my eyes. then i heard kikawa whispering. and class was over. then i was kinda freaking out cause like i coulda been snoring. omgoodness that woulda been embarrassing xD thats right. i snore LOL lovely isnt it? and then afterschool. omgoodness mindy was being so annoying >.< rawr. i suppose i need to be more aggressive? whatever. and danny stayed back for like almost an HOUR. not. my. fault. :P but i feel sooo bad for his mom xD she must hate me >.< okokok i promise i wont make him stay long anymore. well i mean it wasnt my fault per se. but i have to admit i dont exactly want him to go :P cause i dont get to see him that often and hes been sleeping a lot so i havent been able to talk to him much. i was telling jessica how hard it was to figure this all out. she completely understood :'] cause like seriously its soo hard to tell whats going on. honestly i have no idea where we stand right now. so anyway i went home and when kathy was driving away. mindy realized kathy still had my phone -.- then i wanted to take a nap, but my phone is usually my alarm but since it was all mindys fault she was suppose to wake me up at 530. dude. she woke me up at 8 -___- now im doing hw. sorta. lol im tired. omg i shouldnt be procrastinating >.< what a boring day. 3 more days. >.< almost there. no worries. we got this. :]

Things'll get better if you just hold my hand.

so today was just whatevers. except for jeffie's bday! i was tired cause of the essay last night. and like yeaa. ive been thinking and i dont want to be like a communist. it was a long day. especially since maria is kinda bringing me down with her xD 4 more days. we'll get through this! haha. then afterschool. i finally got to see danny and kinda talk to him. first hug in like 9 days >.< i didnt even realize it. i knew i was missing something. but omg for some reason im all mixed up. either its the lack of sleep or im like pmsing -_____- making me all "ridiculous" then went and got some boba. then went home and tried to start on hw. but friggin jessica was distracting >:O yea i still dont approve ok? wise one. no. disgust. and now the rumor is spreading :O then i went to confirmation class. felt sooo sick. >.< my head hurt. i was like blahh. my cheekies were all pink -_- and like i kinda wanted to throw up. maria was very caring <3 and told me is should stay home tomorrow but i have to go to school. its benchmark week. and idk when the chem one is. i need that extra credit. i cant believe i have a B in chem -_- okokok essay time.


so i have a secret: sometimes i want to hold on just a little longer /)_(\

I dont want to go to bed mad at you.

last night me and kathy planned jeff's bday. ohmysnaps i jsut realized i forgot to make his fake cake >.< darn it. ill make it later. but itll be rushed and ugly D: cookie cake yup yup and BALLOONS :] fun. i hope hes surprised xD im soooo excited lol so then i woke up at 8 this morning. organized my notebooks and stuff until i heard my parents leave, then got out of bed and cleaned up everything, and i mean EVERYTHING. mindy was no help whatsoever -____- listened to music and went on aim so it wasnt THAT bad. then maria came over. and we watched changeling. xD haha she got distracted so we didnt finish. its all good though cause all i have to do is cut and paste. itll be UGLYYYYY but who cares? xD and then i ran downstairs after maria left cause scott came to take us to church. but the only seat left was the front seat. and the door wouldnt open, and we were running late. so scott rolled down the window and told me to climb in LOL. he was just kidding but i did it anyway LOLOLOL surprisingly it wasnt that hard xD the trouble woulda been climbing out in front of the people at church xD but good thing he got it to open lol. mass was interesting. sitting next to viet was fun haha. even though hes got muscles he couldnt open the little bag for the pin. pshh i opened it like NOTHING. strong my butt. and powerpuff girl? pleaseeeeee only in his dreams :P so after church went home and showered. then i get a call from kathy dao. omgoooodness. my cousin. thats hella nasty. my COUSIN. thats just weird. weird weird weird. >.< me and kathy were pretty freaked out. WEIRD. i know him and he would not go for her. thats just WEIRD. and i sensed that she never really liked me :P you know what? i dont care :p i do not approve ok? get away from my cousin. seriously. she needs to back off. two guys at once? theres word for that. umm it starts with an "S" ssssssssupermodel? :P not. and then the whole thing with the communist?! duh. its soooo obvious. like reeeee to the biz-wound. sooo weird. so me and kathy were all snooping around then i got bored. and i started looking at some stuff. and i found out something that just hit me. idk. it hurt. >.< and i got kinda upset. okokok really upset. and BITTER. >.< thats never good. i never realized i knew so many insightful people. *cough* long *cough* what?! weird... and derek? LOL sooo funny. so repetitive. and like such baaaaaaaad grammar. its sooo hard for me to understand anything hes saying xD but i got the message. cause seriously. he kept repeating it. but omg. i opened up to him and shzzle and he forgot my name? the eff. loser. i didnt forget his name. hes a friggin old mannnn going senial. and wtf? i kinda look like a fish? jerk. jerk. jerk. i look like an ANGELfish ;D wait thats pretty right? xD haha. but like even though he told me that what he was going to say might hurt me. like it did a little. then i realized something else. and dude i felt so much better. and i love that vivian is my cousin. shes not afraid to keep the blunt truth from me while everyone else was like lying to make me feel better >.< shame on them. but i still love em <3 and i was telling kathy how if my life had a soundtrack, then right now mad by neyo would be playing in the background. then all of a sudden mindy started singing it. i was like whoaaaaaaaa. really. i cant stay mad/upset for long. cause then i start to miss him again >.<

You got a piece of me and honestly my life would suck without you.

so i woke up and begged mindy for the computer. that butthead wouldnt give me the computer until a virus popped up. -______-" so she gave it to me to fix :P but i couldnt fix it rawr and now i have to call the antivirus people and do all this shizzle. >.< im scared of talking to strangers on the phone. >.< its scary D: then went to the mall. south coast plaza to be exact. like i can afford anything there -_-" so me and vivian went around looking for dresses but then we gave up and started trying on clothes xD fuuuuuun. ran around putting together an outfit xD haha. and then kathy and mindy met up with us and then we went to westminster mall. continued to look for dresses but no luck >.< went back to tracy's house and played with vincent. omgahh hes too cute xD he cant pronounce my name lol he calls me "chi keddy" haha that cutie. but rawr i didnt get to say a proper goodbye to danny cause my mom kept coming in. *sigh* so she stayed for a while and then later we decided that i was going to wear tracy's confirmation dress. ehh whatevers. i guess. i kinda wanted my own dress but we're on a budget >.< and im going to stick to that cause imma do whatever it takes to avoid operation: back to the east coast /)_(\ if it happens idk what id do D: its ok though. i think we can get through this with God's help of course. i know Hes got us. :] so i just finished drawing a map to my apartment for maria. shes coming over tomorrow to work on our saint project. and then im gonna make her help me with jeffery's fake cake xD im soo excited for his bday teeeeeheee.

When we're apart whatever are you thinking of?

soooo. the end of a blahh week. =/ rawr. carebear was sick for a week. making me miss him. *sigh* and maria was sick too! but at least she came to school. but she shouldnt have cause she was soooo out of it D: made me sad. >.< chem test was hard. D: and now mirsch knows about me and carebear. its kind of weird o.o so my parents' car broke down and so i couldnt watch kevin play -____________-" but at least i got to watch jv play. that was fun xD warning everyone about how ketchup was cancerous xD but no one would listen -______-" and then i gave up and ate a hotdog with ketchup too. LOL such a hypocrite. paul owes me a muffin! and i just realized he and tommy dont use gel to get their hair to stick up o.o they use HAIRSPRAY!!!!!!!!! i bet. LOLOLOL thats sooo not masculine xD or they could be telling the truth. God blows wind into their hair and makes it stand up? xD lol saltwater room. xD such a pretty song. haha derek made me remember it. so i finally aimed him up. i forgot how fun it was to talk to him. the table should go to this call to serve thing he told me about. sounds fun. and im excited. derek is going to our confirmation cause he promised me he would! and then hes gonna sing saltwater room and i have to fill inthe blanks LOL gonna be sooo embarrassing xD so anyways gonna go shopping for my dress this weekend. hopefully >.< i need one thats really pretty because i dont like to wear dresses and the rare times that i do better be worth it! but it also need to fit my budget rawr. wish me luck >.<

Remember when we danced till the sun came up?

so i went home early. feel like shiiiiiz but im still blogging. last night was like one of the worst nights ever. i kept waking up (did i even sleep?)until i finally slept for reals at like 2-3? i dont even know. raaaawr. then i woke up sooo late today >.< 7:40 :O ran to class. i was late. my hair was a mess. embarrassing... >.< but on the bright side, this weekend wasnt soooo bad?. went to chuck e cheese. played some basketball. my high score? FORTY-FOUR! hells yea... but my average was like 30 xD sooo yeaa. even the little kiddies beat me xD i suuuuck. but at least i got 44 like once xD. thats right. be proud of me.:'] then we went to eat at Luc Dinh ky. nasty :P i like the other place better. so after we went home, i was debating whether or not to call carebear or not cause i missed him >.< and mindy stole my phone from me! >:O so i stole hers LOL. then i was like forget it. and i gave it back to her. and i went to sleep. but i couldnt sleep. so when she wasnt looking, i took my phone back and called him and she caught me. LOL xD. and she was being very obnoxious about it too. pshh. yelling at me in the background and stuff. i dont even know what she was saying. i heard something like "im very disappointed in you" and then really loud "FINE. IGNORE ME." xD but that was it. then my parents came home, and she was like mwahah and then she started fake coughing really LOUD. and right when my dad came in, she was all HI DADDY all sweet and stuff -_____- so devious. is that the word? lol idk. but i hung up on carebear xD and had to call him back after i finished talking to my dad about Disneyland, which, we've decided that we're not going to go because its too expensive and we'd rather do something else besides watch the little kiddies and walk around for hours. waste of money. so yea anyways. i told danny about my secret. >.< i guess he took it well? idk. its not gonna become anything big. i dont think its a big deal. but isnt it always like that? then we started talking about how apparently the idea of me in a dress is so laughable. pshh. hes all "giddy". SUUUURE. and "chortling" at me and MOCKING me like Santa Claus and calling me a ho ho ho. tsk tsk tsk. this all leads back to "bros before what?!" SHAME. haha. but i was just teasing :P maybe haha. i really like talking to him even though it means i lose sleep xD. but rawr. im always waiting by the phone, wondering if he misses me like i miss him. >.< this is getting corny. my sister finds it annoying. LOL. but whatever. okays okays, i need to nap. then call my sister to tell her to walk home. then do hw. then go to confirmation class. phew. only one more month of classes >.< im excited... ;D